Hello fellow bloggers. I'm not quite sure what I am doing on here, or what exactly I want to get out of this... but here I am. I'm also not sure how many of you out there are going to be reading this and I'm not sure I want to know how many people are reading this. That is a lot of pressure.
I am a 20 year old college junior who is still trying to find my place in this world. I have a degree in clinical lab sciences but missed working with people. So my next attempt is to get a nursing degree. Sometimes I wonder if I am ever going to get out of school.
I wish I was taller, skinnier, prettier. I know these thoughts are cliche. Judge me if you want. I thought I was in love once, but I'm not so sure it was what I thought it was. I've made my mistakes, some of which I wish I could take back. I try to be optimistic, but deep in my heart I am a pessimist. I believe I have a mild case of OCD. I like things such as volumes and groupings in sets of 5, but count stairs in sets of 4. I like to have things lined up and neat, although you can't tell by the looks of my bedroom. If I don't like the way a page of notes look in my notebook I will rewrite them. I am constantly straightening things in front of me when out in public without even thinking about it. When walking through a store I have to touch things as I walk by them. I hate trying on clothes almost as much as I hate being naked.
I like to pretend that I am a photographer. I love spending hours around town taking pictures of anything and everything. I finally have gotten the time and courage to take a photo class at school. Thursday is our first critique and I am shaking in my boots. Sometimes I wonder if I spend too much time behind the camera lens and not enough time living my life.
I love my friends and family. They mean everything to me. My hero is my grandpa. I miss him every day. I wish I wouldn't have taken for granted the time that he was here. I have yet to eat a Three Musketeer's candy bar since he died.
I can't guarantee that I am going to keep up with this blog. But I am going to attempt to with all of my might. I am hoping to use it as a way to update anyone who cares about my struggle of trying to join the people of the thin world. Don't worry, I'm not going to become some fitness freak. Ask any one of my friends and they will tell you that you are more likely to find me on the couch with my laptop or a movie than at the gym.
I hate talking about myself, but I am hoping that with this blog I will become more comfortable with the idea of talking about my life.
Livin' Life Through the Lens,
Samus.
I think a photography class should be a requirement in all educational programs because it makes you see the world rather than just look at it. ~Author Unknown
