Pot Progress

So, I don't really have much to write about. I feel awkward writing about myself all the time but I don't really have any interesting things to write about.

But anyways, I officially have one of my pots drawn out to paint. I drew the one with the flowers on it for my grandma first because I figured that would be the easiest. I really like the way that it turned out. I am nervous to paint it. But before I paint that one, I plan on drawing out the other one for my grandpa. I was planning on trying to paint old cars on it, but seeing as how my painting skills are a minimum, I am going to try and do shamrocks / clovers on it.

...that's all i really have to talk about... there's nothing too exciting that's happened lately. Hopefully I will come across a blog-worth activity soon.

Samus

You don't take a photograph. You ask, quietly, to borrow it. ~Author Unknown

21

One of these days I will finally turn 21 and be able to go out to the bars and just hang out with people. . but for now, I am still a child :(

that's really all I have to say for now. not feeling really inspired tonight.

samus

Photograph: a picture painted by the sun without instruction in art. ~Ambrose Bierce

Me Time

Snow came back today to Marquette. For the past couple of days it has been beautiful and sunny and today it was bitterly cold and snowing. Talk about having a poopy day. Hopefully the weather will turn nice again.

Have you ever woken up and been in a bad mood? That happened to me today and I can't figure out exactly where the bad mood came from. After my afternoon class I took a nap and woke up to go to dinner with friends and was just in a bad mood. After my night class I decided that I needed some "me time." During that me time all of a sudden I felt my mood lighten. I can't explain why, it just happened.

I guess what I learned is that sometimes I just need time to myself, even if it is just to clean and watch a movie alone.

I keep trying to tell myself to put myself first and look out for me because if I don't no one else will, but it is really hard to do. I always find myself looking to please other people, even if it means doing something that I might not want to do or giving up some time for me. I wonder if I will ever learn to watch out for me.

The Next Picasso

I have painted my first pot. I think I like it. I don't really have anything to plant in it yet, but I'm sure that I will find something soon. I think that I have an obsession with plants. I have a lot. Not as many as Tracie Frame, but the collection is growing. I am worried that one day I will forget to water them and I will come back and they will all be dead.

But back to my pot. It is like an off-white color with trees and clouds on it. I am hope that one day I will see a plant and know right away that it is the plant for that pot.

By painting my pot I have discovered that I like to paint. Even though I feel a little bit of stress about what to paint and how to paint it, the actual act of painting is very relaxing. I have decided to paint two more special pots. One each for my Grandma and Grandpa Greenleaf. I thought about what to paint and have changed my mind multiple times about what to paint. But once I get them satisfactorly painted I am planning on planting forget-me-nots and zinnias in them and bringing them to the cemetery. I am hoping to find peace through it all.

Peace and Serenity To All,

Samus

A photograph is memory in the raw. ~Carrie Latet

Uno

Hello fellow bloggers. I'm not quite sure what I am doing on here, or what exactly I want to get out of this... but here I am. I'm also not sure how many of you out there are going to be reading this and I'm not sure I want to know how many people are reading this. That is a lot of pressure.

I am a 20 year old college junior who is still trying to find my place in this world. I have a degree in clinical lab sciences but missed working with people. So my next attempt is to get a nursing degree. Sometimes I wonder if I am ever going to get out of school.

I wish I was taller, skinnier, prettier. I know these thoughts are cliche. Judge me if you want. I thought I was in love once, but I'm not so sure it was what I thought it was. I've made my mistakes, some of which I wish I could take back. I try to be optimistic, but deep in my heart I am a pessimist. I believe I have a mild case of OCD. I like things such as volumes and groupings in sets of 5, but count stairs in sets of 4. I like to have things lined up and neat, although you can't tell by the looks of my bedroom. If I don't like the way a page of notes look in my notebook I will rewrite them. I am constantly straightening things in front of me when out in public without even thinking about it. When walking through a store I have to touch things as I walk by them. I hate trying on clothes almost as much as I hate being naked.

I like to pretend that I am a photographer. I love spending hours around town taking pictures of anything and everything. I finally have gotten the time and courage to take a photo class at school. Thursday is our first critique and I am shaking in my boots. Sometimes I wonder if I spend too much time behind the camera lens and not enough time living my life.

I love my friends and family. They mean everything to me. My hero is my grandpa. I miss him every day. I wish I wouldn't have taken for granted the time that he was here. I have yet to eat a Three Musketeer's candy bar since he died.

I can't guarantee that I am going to keep up with this blog. But I am going to attempt to with all of my might. I am hoping to use it as a way to update anyone who cares about my struggle of trying to join the people of the thin world. Don't worry, I'm not going to become some fitness freak. Ask any one of my friends and they will tell you that you are more likely to find me on the couch with my laptop or a movie than at the gym.

I hate talking about myself, but I am hoping that with this blog I will become more comfortable with the idea of talking about my life.

Livin' Life Through the Lens,

Samus.

I think a photography class should be a requirement in all educational programs because it makes you see the world rather than just look at it. ~Author Unknown